Sunday, April 28, 2013

i|me|her: a conversation with us [1]

This hole is so terribly deep.
I finally crawled out of it, two months ago, JUST to be thrown back in:
Harder-
I was pushed down, deeper than my grave.
Dirt is clogging my lungs.
Can anyone reach me?
When will this endless cycle decide to come to an equilibrium?
The whiplash is leaving my neck on a strand.
UPDOWNUPDOWN
Yeah, try being there!
All I wanted was something HEALTHY to hold.
And all I had to hold onto was ripped away.
I want to be angry, I want to be violent.
I want to be promiscuous, I want to be comatose.

Calm down, Brain.
You need to be sane.

Sanity, you say?
That's not possible in this brain!
You should know this by now.
You've been burned with a curse!
A curse you say?
I know it is more than that!
Or do I? Do I know anything, these days?
Does anybody know, for me?
Do all the sides of Me know of this?
I DO NOT
SHE DOES NOT
NOPE, NOT ME
Will the cycles ever end?
You already asked that, dear.
Well, is there an answer?
The possibilities are endless, honey.
Possibilities, really?! I'm STUCK! 
When will the "possibilities" cease,
and when will i|me|her receive the answer?

Nevermore dear, nevermore.
Well, that's just fucking fantastic.

|DMCDerp|April28,2013|




Saturday, April 20, 2013

Dorky Deygo: Desiree Marie-Cay Ruggiero Darnell on her 14th

Dorky Deygo: Desiree Marie-Cay Ruggiero Darnell on her 14th


There’s a limit to your love; A few of my favorite things

Tequila Rose and white Moscatto
The hint of cigarettes on his whiskey breath
The roar of his Harley between my legs
The itch of whiskers upon my face
THESE are a few of my favorite things.

He appeared, with neither of us knowing what our future held.
Never had I known the odds of coincidence could later collide.

I let him into my life, not knowing how much he would eventually provide:
Trust with my vulnerability
Trust with my safety
Trust with unfamiliarity
Trust with a ride

My mind was not prepared to lose such an amazing image.
My heart is nothing but a silhouette of what was once there.
Never have I had so much light overwhelm my life.
I cannot thank him enough for showing me happiness can be received innocently.

Desiree Darnell|DmcD|April21,2013